Blah, Blah, Blah....

Do you ever have days when you feel like no one is listening? You could look right at someone (even someone you know loves you beyond measure!) and start mumbling gibberish and they would respond as if on auto-pilot.I haven't had just a day of this, I've had a week! And frankly, I am annoyed. Okay, maybe my feel bads aren't feeling so good right now either. Maybe it's an adjustment issue, maybe I'm too sensitive, maybe what I'm saying just doesn't matter anymore....blah, blah, blah...I have talked to friends/family this week only to have them have to "go" rather abruptly. If it was just one, I would roll with it, but it has been too many! Maybe it's a phase...maybe I'm being prepared for the teen years when I should never be seen or heard...I've heard they really do that....Well, I don't like it!!

****sigh****

Okay, that is off my chest, I will cease to whine. Just a couple of important things to note this week...My oldest niece, Carlee, turns 31 tomorrow! Oh man, maybe I should say my 1st niece...Happy B-Day, Carlee. In the days following her birth, my life and world changed. She and her sisters became my life for a time. They helped me focus outside of myself when I desperately needed to. Carlee is an amazing woman and mother. Carlee, you deserve the best of everything and I hope your birthday is fabulous. I love you a bunch!

On the baby side of things, I have been told to cease and desist breastfeeding asap. Of course to go cold turkey would be another torture in and of itself...so, we are cutting back. My body is all out of whack and my blood pressure won't respond to the medication, so he needs to prescribe something stronger. Not responding to weight loss either. He told me he'd let me be nuts long enough and refused to be the one to tell my children why I wasn't here anymore. The headaches are getting more frequent. So, I guess I will quit looking at him when he's talking and only hearing BLAH, BLAH, BLAH. EWWWW, I just recognized a pattern...hmmm. In all seriousness, he's let me do what I want for far too long against his better judgement and finally just unloaded. So, Doc, I am at attention and scared about this situation.

One more casualty of the post-partum mama...my hair! As I watch it land in the trap of my shower, I think about how much each strand costs to color every 6-8 weeks. ***sigh***I'm praying I am not snatched bald before the family events we have planned for May. My DH would maybe loan me some chest hair ....that's a thought!

Makenna got the cutest package in the mail today from her big sister, Wendy. She made her a little skirt and headband! I will post a picture of her in it when it fits her...and that shouldn't be too long. Just for the record, Mak smiled when I showed it to her. Smart baby!

MY FAB FOUR!

All four of them! I looked at this picture and was stunned to realize that I have actually borne four! Amazing!
Whenever I put the blanket down for Mak, Sam makes a beeline. When he's not manhandling her, he just lays peacefully beside her. It's beautiful.

Poems, PRAYERS, and Promises

While there have been some relatively icky parts to today, such as Andrew throwing up at school and at home, Samuel pooping out of both sides of his diaper while sitting in his nice, snug high chair...(there's a visual for ya!), it has been a wonderful day! I went to my doctors appointment since my 2 weeks reprieve was over. I was nervous and upset because I knew I would get bad news. Well, the top number of my blood pressure dropped 30 points and I lost another 4 pounds. So, I can continue nursing and I don't have to go back for a month! Again, not a big deal for some, but it's a lot cheaper than formula and it helps you lose weight faster. Makenna was adorable over there, too. My doctor made the comment that my fatigue was probably all her fault and he directed the comment straight to her. She has been smiling quite often, but usually saves them for those of us she sees often. She focused on him and gave him the most beautiful smile yet. It was awesome. He looked like someone gave him a trophy. When I go back in to his office, the camera goes with me so I can get a picture for her scrapbook.



Prayers are answered! Sometimes I get so caught up in life as it is happening that I forget to include the one being that has made my existence possible! I hate the fact that it has taken a scare such as this to open my eyes...when I have been taught so much already by my past experiences. I have made a promise to myself to continue with daily, more meaningful prayer...not just by rote.

One of my brothers had a health scare in Las Vegas this week. It wound up not being serious for now, but I think kind of shook all of us up. Made me think about the post I did a few days ago about if you haven't talked to someone lately and let them know how you feel....I think I have some phone calls to make this weekend!

I am looking forward to tomorrow and dreading it at the same time! First, I get to have my hair done tomorrow! Obviously that's what I'm looking forward to! ATC has his last day of school before Spring Break!!! Yea!!! I guess I overdid that one, huh? And, if Andrew and Sam aren't doing any better tomorrow, they get to go see the doctor! Plus, Adam is packing up to go again. That always leaves me with mixed feelings. Oh, while I'm thinking about it, I finally came up with an Indian name for Adam....you'll have to let me know what y'all think...."BOXERS THAT BUNCH". I even got a little smile out of him today for that one.